In my latest blog, I decided to try a body cleanse. My goal was to live 21 days without caffeine, sugar, gluten, or animal products. So what does that mean? Well, I had to be a vegan. Yummy right?
I began on day 1 ready to go. I had a shopping list of everything I wanted to buy and I had several new recipes that I wanted to try. As I started my day, I looked for something to eat for breakfast. As you may suspect, I found nothing, not-a-thing. I decided that 'ohwell, I'm heading to the grocery store anyways, I'll live without breakfast.' I was fine without food, but my morning coffee that I had to miss irritated me a little (no caffeine remember?).
By the time that I made it to the grocery store, I was about to starve. I realised that I couldn't even look in most aisles because of my strict rules. I bought a few frozen bags of veggies and a few fresh veggies, but other than that, not too much. When I made it home, I noticed my head was starting to hurt from not having coffee and I could not go another minute without eating. I had a plain veggie burger and a baked potato with veggie butter and veggie cheese on it. It didn't taste too bad because I was so hungry, but it didn't fill me up either.
The image of a cheeseburger wouldn't leave me.
I had convinced myself that I would never be able to eat yummy food never ever again. I was mad and hungry. Not a good combination.
I made it to about 8:00 that night.
I went into the kitchen when I couldn't stand it anymore. I acted all sneaky about it when I grabbed something and ate it. It was delicious. Then I asked myself, 'why in the world did you decide to do this?' Honestly, not for a good enough reason. I knew that I was going to be in a terrible mood for 3 weeks, starve, and not be able to enjoy going out because I had such a strict diet. "But the results are worth it." Okay, fair enough. But how long do you think it would take me to get back the same point that I was at when I started? Not long.
These are my reasons(:
I was at a Bible study last night and we talked about beauty, it really registered with me because of what I had been doing. I had put my image and my body before what was going on inside of me. Beauty comes from within, not from the outside. I am in no way saying that we shouldn't care about our bodies or our appearance. We have been given these bodies and we should care for them, but not become obsessive about it. When I think about my body more than my relationship with the Holy Spirit, I am doing something wrong. I have been given this body, and I have been given a life to live. I don't want to be angry because I can't keep my body in perfect condition. I want to be happy because my body can allow me to be joyful and have fun. Three weeks of anger and hunger seems to me to be the opposite of what I am allowed to do and should do. There is yummy food that I can eat and memories that I can make when I don't obsess with the little things. I'm not saying that I am not going to try to be healthy, of course I will try to be healthy, but I am not going to think about my body more than I do my relationships, that would be a sad waste.
I guess that this is all that I have for now. Thanks for reading(:
Loves,
M
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