Day 1 (technically)

Hi reader! (That is, if you exist out there:)) In my life, I have discovered several things, or I just pretend that I discovered it. I find myself thinking a whole lot about random stuff that probably never crosses other people's minds. One of these things as of recently is motivation. Motivation is something that is hard to come across these days...I remember the good old days, playing in creeks and being stung by bees. So far in my life, I have had 3 stages. I was a kid, then I was a teenager, and now I am trying to grow up. I am still a teen, but only number-wise, I am convinced that I was born old. Some people tell me that I have an "old-soul" and I don't doubt it for a second. I love my happy, old-person self. You have to love yourself in order to happy right? I couldn't exactly go around being happy if I hated myself, although on occasion I really do think that I am ridiculous and I want to ask myself, "Really, like really? What is wrong with you?" This sums up me: My favorite thing in the entire world is sitting on a porch swing drinking sweet tea with lots of ice in it and listening to the birds. It seems to me to be the place that God intended for me to sit. That is my little piece of heaven.

  Anyways, back to motivation...It is rare in the world today. Or rare in my life at the moment. I guess that I am spoiled with praise. I am not a selfish brat who thinks only of herself, I can assure you that. I am just use to achieving my goals and being congratulated. And at this point in my life, there doesn't seem to be to much achieving at the moment. I have just started college and I am taking all of my classes online, it is a real challenge to me because I have never had an online course. I attended a small school and had the EXACT same teachers from seventh grade to graduation day. It has been interesting and challenging to say the least. Next on my list is a small little thing on the side that I like to call my job. It is called "Products By M". I am so excited to begin my own business, but it has been so hard! Well, of course it has been hard!! I am starting from ground -0 and working my way up. It has been so much fun doing everything that is involved, but I have been discouraged all at the same time. Several things have been easy because I know exactly what I am doing. But others, not so much. I can only hope that I can get organized and take a breath of fresh air! AND SOON!

On top of all of this fun stuff, I am trying to stay in shape. I love to be healthy because my body just feels better. I love the days that I run and I don't feel like I am going to die, I just run because my body is happy and loves it. But there is always a but...I am definitely NOT in shape. I eat, and eat, and eat, and eat just a little bit more. Yes, I realize that I must eat, duh! Everyone has to eat more than a bowl of rice to survive. But I can eat an awful lot and it is close to catching up with me and tearing me apart, one french fry at at time. Did I say that I think that I am chemically addicted to McDonald's. Yes, I believe so. I am cranky when I don't have it. And when having a series of nightmares, I dream that our McDonald's is being torn down and that is the first thing I think of when I wake up...I know there is a problem. But it is a happy problem(: I <3 McDonald's. But I must stop! No....more.....fries! (Can you tell that I am having a tug-of-war battle right now between the goodness and being healthy?:))

So here we go, Day 1 at 1 am. We will see where this goes....to infinity and beyond!

Jeremiah 29:11